Post by Amaterasu Solar on Nov 9, 2015 15:27:34 GMT
Dearest Alex,
We had a rapport, You and Me. We both think logically – or did for the longest time. I figured that You would easily see the difference between an obsession and duty. Duty has a time and a place, while obsession permeates all situations. Perhaps I did not make it clear that I have a duty to friends, to the Ones I love, to help all I can in succeeding in the world as it’s presently set up, too. Time and place.
I barely grasped Your thinking (if at all…) the first time through Your accusations that I was “taking over” something that, if You examine My choice of behaviors, I was perfectly happy doing whatever I could to help the project along. Though TAP came up occasionally, it was never the focus of any discussion for very long, and either was someOne else bringing it up or was when a particularly poignant problem came up. Then, sometimes, I chose to mention that TAP would solve for it. And then We’d move on.
I found Myself having to solve for the problems that You were creating. My standard profile on the forum was changed, not because You kindly suggested it, but because You threw the idea at Me as a weapon. So first, I removed what was there (that problem solved) and then designed a team avatar, sent files to Those I was fairly certain I knew what They might want and awaited orders from any who did not receive them, willing to make any changes if My call failed (another problem solved).
I offered an olive branch to You because, dear One, I love You and know that the team needs You. You accepted, and We moved on, creating together. I was grateful, whether You picked up on that, or would even believe it, now. We were back on track, on a project that I feel is equally as important in the final analysis as TAP. The two combined will be awesome. [smile]
Still abused of the notion that We could discuss things rationally, I explained (I thought) the difference between being obsessed with something and doing the best I can in the time and place. And thus ensued another round of problems. You accused Me of things I was not doing and did not do, called Me names, defaced My profile, declared You did not care about the project, left it, and severed Our communications. In totally irrational form.
What now becomes the solution? Your talents are needed on the project. Clearly, My skills are subordinate and I know I will choose to do what I can whether You see Me in the mix of the project or not, so I left the group convo that I created to ensure info specific to the project would be seen by Those who needed to know and create Our community there.
I asked the leader to delete Me on the forum, but He did not at that time. Later, at Your insistence, He did. I understood the problem You had created for the leader and there was no problem. I had asked, after all.
And here it now is, with Me not there to offer direct response with ideas and the offering of things I can do. But at least in My Self exile, Your talents are there.
Yes, I do a lot of work to remove the psychopaths in control here on this planet – with beloved friends, I do what I can to assist in creating success in the psychopaths’ systems.
I can only chalk this irrationality up to a misuse, by way of lack of data, of what is proving to be a very useful tool, because none of it makes sense otherwise given Our friendship up to the point that happened, Our tendency to approach things rationally, Our overall agreement in things large and small. The complete irrationality of Your behavior choices can easily be chalked up to this incident. I am worried for You and hope a reversal of the problem can be found.
I love You, Alex.
Your “imaginary” friend,
Amaterasu
We had a rapport, You and Me. We both think logically – or did for the longest time. I figured that You would easily see the difference between an obsession and duty. Duty has a time and a place, while obsession permeates all situations. Perhaps I did not make it clear that I have a duty to friends, to the Ones I love, to help all I can in succeeding in the world as it’s presently set up, too. Time and place.
I barely grasped Your thinking (if at all…) the first time through Your accusations that I was “taking over” something that, if You examine My choice of behaviors, I was perfectly happy doing whatever I could to help the project along. Though TAP came up occasionally, it was never the focus of any discussion for very long, and either was someOne else bringing it up or was when a particularly poignant problem came up. Then, sometimes, I chose to mention that TAP would solve for it. And then We’d move on.
I found Myself having to solve for the problems that You were creating. My standard profile on the forum was changed, not because You kindly suggested it, but because You threw the idea at Me as a weapon. So first, I removed what was there (that problem solved) and then designed a team avatar, sent files to Those I was fairly certain I knew what They might want and awaited orders from any who did not receive them, willing to make any changes if My call failed (another problem solved).
I offered an olive branch to You because, dear One, I love You and know that the team needs You. You accepted, and We moved on, creating together. I was grateful, whether You picked up on that, or would even believe it, now. We were back on track, on a project that I feel is equally as important in the final analysis as TAP. The two combined will be awesome. [smile]
Still abused of the notion that We could discuss things rationally, I explained (I thought) the difference between being obsessed with something and doing the best I can in the time and place. And thus ensued another round of problems. You accused Me of things I was not doing and did not do, called Me names, defaced My profile, declared You did not care about the project, left it, and severed Our communications. In totally irrational form.
What now becomes the solution? Your talents are needed on the project. Clearly, My skills are subordinate and I know I will choose to do what I can whether You see Me in the mix of the project or not, so I left the group convo that I created to ensure info specific to the project would be seen by Those who needed to know and create Our community there.
I asked the leader to delete Me on the forum, but He did not at that time. Later, at Your insistence, He did. I understood the problem You had created for the leader and there was no problem. I had asked, after all.
And here it now is, with Me not there to offer direct response with ideas and the offering of things I can do. But at least in My Self exile, Your talents are there.
Yes, I do a lot of work to remove the psychopaths in control here on this planet – with beloved friends, I do what I can to assist in creating success in the psychopaths’ systems.
I can only chalk this irrationality up to a misuse, by way of lack of data, of what is proving to be a very useful tool, because none of it makes sense otherwise given Our friendship up to the point that happened, Our tendency to approach things rationally, Our overall agreement in things large and small. The complete irrationality of Your behavior choices can easily be chalked up to this incident. I am worried for You and hope a reversal of the problem can be found.
I love You, Alex.
Your “imaginary” friend,
Amaterasu